contemplation of misconceptions Monday, June 1, 2009 1:16 AM
i don't know what to do, who to trust, who to confide in. this year has proven to be the most challenging to me, to my friendships & relationships. i feel so hopeless, helpless, alone.
some are still the same and support me through everything. new acquintances helped me to forget even for a while. others, i felt so used. after everything we've been through, i guess you just wanna throw it all away, i could see through your words babe, i know what you meant. don't try to deny it. even though you might never read these words, i just want to ask, was our friendship even worth it? this year's tests on our friendship (this goes out to more than a single person) have proven a lot. thanks for waking me up from being a total droning zombie. i don't know how many times this has been repeated and when will i ever learn from it. stupid stupid heart. and it seems that i'm losing more and more of my friends. i don't know what i did wrong, help me to see will you?
as for the other person in my life, i don't think i could trust anyone else with my own heart or secrets. i don't know what to do anymore...everything feels like a mess. i still don't know you or what you do behind my back. yea, a bit of jealousy is seeped into this though i'm sure you don't know what i'm talking about cause' i never told you bout' it. god, i don't know what the hell i'm talking about. all i ask is if you're playing with my heart, cease.
other than that, i miss you Melawatians. i miss those naive days i used to spend there. i miss my old classmates esp those who i met at VI, im sorry we didn't chat cause of my stupid amnesia prone memory, i forgot your names. hope we'll meet up someday yea?
and i miss the old me.
i think she was pretty cool, never took a shit about what anyone thought about her and always stands up for herself, not to mention a whole lot cleverer than i am now. where are you, jaf reen natassia iman bt. jaf faizal? i need you.
if you see me being a bit cold lately, i'm sorry. im just not in the mood to keep up with the antics of meaningless talk. i hope everything will turn out okay.
jenny:
I am jafreen natassia iman from Earth and is born on
01/12/93, 0100 hours.I'm so unpredictable, I am totally an element that you'd never
ever known, you can;t find it in the periodic table cause no one has even found it- I explode in
your face just like potassium when it touches water, it's really explosive, you should really run
away first before I do spark into flames and burn you alive! I love blasting my music as well,
i'm like addicted to it like drugs.and i'm uncertain of my aspirations. where do you go to know what you're made for?
and god, my total failing is my insecurity and no sense of self-assertiveness. seriously, i SUCK.
this homo-sapien specimen was given a very long&unflattering name on the first of december of 1993.
she hails from the venus clan and was borned under the shining archer, Sagittarius.
being indescribable (hmph!), she loves reading long&boring texts that eludes other normal human beings,
gazing at the beautiful moon&stars from her balcony, listening to screamo&slow songs,
singing offkey and boring everyone to death (you can decipher that literally or figuratively, XP)
she's currently inbetween worlds after going through sixteen years on earth, mostly physically unscathed
but emotionally scarred. her heart was stolen on the twenty first of may by Elisha b. Kamal Basha
but somehow she hasn't alerted the authorities. ;) values her friends highly as they are the
light to shine through her darkness. loves writing stories and abandoning it halfway through. (warning. :p)
and god, she's like a damn klutz that if you gave her a button to judgment day and asked her to take care of it,
she would accidentally press it instead. she could cause the end of the world! XP and she loves to say these stupid things
right from her head. been seen singing and dancing in the rain. believes in kismet.
hello once again, i have been having nightmares. and my sanctuary of star filled skies
and soft flower fields are currently being invaded by aliens and bugs with hailstorms coming in.
inspire me, impress me, embolden me, make me smile. :) i love questioning stuff, i guess i'm those weird people
who can't shut up. and i totally envy people with red hair, don't ask, it's this weird thing
but i won't come up and stare at you just cause' of your hair, god i'm not a stalker.
haha, and i love to laugh out loud, seriously. even when i'm depressive.
though i've been putting on this fake smile for so long, i don't know how i feel right now.
see? even talking/ typing i sound like a lunatic. XP
i'm not sure what to do with my life or this stupid profile at the mo'.
maybe i should give my muses on Olympus a swift kick in their togas to get my brain moving again.
contemplation of misconceptions Monday, June 1, 2009 1:16 AM
i don't know what to do, who to trust, who to confide in. this year has proven to be the most challenging to me, to my friendships & relationships. i feel so hopeless, helpless, alone.
some are still the same and support me through everything. new acquintances helped me to forget even for a while. others, i felt so used. after everything we've been through, i guess you just wanna throw it all away, i could see through your words babe, i know what you meant. don't try to deny it. even though you might never read these words, i just want to ask, was our friendship even worth it? this year's tests on our friendship (this goes out to more than a single person) have proven a lot. thanks for waking me up from being a total droning zombie. i don't know how many times this has been repeated and when will i ever learn from it. stupid stupid heart. and it seems that i'm losing more and more of my friends. i don't know what i did wrong, help me to see will you?
as for the other person in my life, i don't think i could trust anyone else with my own heart or secrets. i don't know what to do anymore...everything feels like a mess. i still don't know you or what you do behind my back. yea, a bit of jealousy is seeped into this though i'm sure you don't know what i'm talking about cause' i never told you bout' it. god, i don't know what the hell i'm talking about. all i ask is if you're playing with my heart, cease.
other than that, i miss you Melawatians. i miss those naive days i used to spend there. i miss my old classmates esp those who i met at VI, im sorry we didn't chat cause of my stupid amnesia prone memory, i forgot your names. hope we'll meet up someday yea?
and i miss the old me.
i think she was pretty cool, never took a shit about what anyone thought about her and always stands up for herself, not to mention a whole lot cleverer than i am now. where are you, jaf reen natassia iman bt. jaf faizal? i need you.
if you see me being a bit cold lately, i'm sorry. im just not in the mood to keep up with the antics of meaningless talk. i hope everything will turn out okay.
