it wasn't that i wanted to. it was my most hated and unexpected metamorphosis.
i realised it after the big fight we had at tuition where all of us (me, tiara, naz, din, megat, alysha) confessed all the backstabbing and rumours.
i noticed that i changed. i finally became someone that was sick and damn tired of all the lies. i started to build a huge strong wall to keep it all inside and just keep on smiling and laughing.
i guess i was too busy pretending that i end up ignoring my friends and getting moodswings all the time.
maybe the need of the situation forced me to reaccess myself and suddenly, i find myself to be this stupid, ignorant, selfish brat.
i hate it.
i think back when i was in form one, naive and innocent not knowing a thing about the social life, getting straight A's, making my parents proud. i wore what i want and didn't care about they rumour mills.
then now, my results are crumbling, i have to go by these stupid rules, my innocent eyes are stripped lil by lil, my life was in pieces and i thought about where i stand with my friends.
was i a burden or something..?
ok, i had problems before, HUGE problems but suddenly they all united and hit me in the head with the force. and i changed.
its no biggie to everyone. everyone changes when they get to a point. but i hate it.
i don't really know what to do. just felt that i had to let it out of my chest.
jenny:
I am jafreen natassia iman from Earth and is born on
01/12/93, 0100 hours.I'm so unpredictable, I am totally an element that you'd never
ever known, you can;t find it in the periodic table cause no one has even found it- I explode in
your face just like potassium when it touches water, it's really explosive, you should really run
away first before I do spark into flames and burn you alive! I love blasting my music as well,
i'm like addicted to it like drugs.and i'm uncertain of my aspirations. where do you go to know what you're made for?
and god, my total failing is my insecurity and no sense of self-assertiveness. seriously, i SUCK.
this homo-sapien specimen was given a very long&unflattering name on the first of december of 1993.
she hails from the venus clan and was borned under the shining archer, Sagittarius.
being indescribable (hmph!), she loves reading long&boring texts that eludes other normal human beings,
gazing at the beautiful moon&stars from her balcony, listening to screamo&slow songs,
singing offkey and boring everyone to death (you can decipher that literally or figuratively, XP)
she's currently inbetween worlds after going through sixteen years on earth, mostly physically unscathed
but emotionally scarred. her heart was stolen on the twenty first of may by Elisha b. Kamal Basha
but somehow she hasn't alerted the authorities. ;) values her friends highly as they are the
light to shine through her darkness. loves writing stories and abandoning it halfway through. (warning. :p)
and god, she's like a damn klutz that if you gave her a button to judgment day and asked her to take care of it,
she would accidentally press it instead. she could cause the end of the world! XP and she loves to say these stupid things
right from her head. been seen singing and dancing in the rain. believes in kismet.
hello once again, i have been having nightmares. and my sanctuary of star filled skies
and soft flower fields are currently being invaded by aliens and bugs with hailstorms coming in.
inspire me, impress me, embolden me, make me smile. :) i love questioning stuff, i guess i'm those weird people
who can't shut up. and i totally envy people with red hair, don't ask, it's this weird thing
but i won't come up and stare at you just cause' of your hair, god i'm not a stalker.
haha, and i love to laugh out loud, seriously. even when i'm depressive.
though i've been putting on this fake smile for so long, i don't know how i feel right now.
see? even talking/ typing i sound like a lunatic. XP
i'm not sure what to do with my life or this stupid profile at the mo'.
maybe i should give my muses on Olympus a swift kick in their togas to get my brain moving again.
it wasn't that i wanted to. it was my most hated and unexpected metamorphosis.
i realised it after the big fight we had at tuition where all of us (me, tiara, naz, din, megat, alysha) confessed all the backstabbing and rumours.
i noticed that i changed. i finally became someone that was sick and damn tired of all the lies. i started to build a huge strong wall to keep it all inside and just keep on smiling and laughing.
i guess i was too busy pretending that i end up ignoring my friends and getting moodswings all the time.
maybe the need of the situation forced me to reaccess myself and suddenly, i find myself to be this stupid, ignorant, selfish brat.
i hate it.
i think back when i was in form one, naive and innocent not knowing a thing about the social life, getting straight A's, making my parents proud. i wore what i want and didn't care about they rumour mills.
then now, my results are crumbling, i have to go by these stupid rules, my innocent eyes are stripped lil by lil, my life was in pieces and i thought about where i stand with my friends.
was i a burden or something..?
ok, i had problems before, HUGE problems but suddenly they all united and hit me in the head with the force. and i changed.
its no biggie to everyone. everyone changes when they get to a point. but i hate it.
i don't really know what to do. just felt that i had to let it out of my chest.
